Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Anxious much?

Last night I had an anxiety attack.

At least I think it was an anxiety attack. According to wikipedia, it sounds like one.

I was just about to get in the shower and then all of a sudden I felt really angry. My chest tightened up, I got a knot in my stomach, and I couldn't breathe I was so angry. Then I was like, "OK - I'll just take a shower and relax..." but I still didn't know where it came from. It was out of nowhere. I was just watching "The Girls Next Door" and nothing about that made me angry.

I got in the shower and then it got worse.

I stopped breathing. I got really dizzy. And then my anger increased - like all I wanted to do was punch someone in the face. I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs. I was SO mad. I was trying so hard to catch a breath, I was gripping the walls, and then I had to sit down because I started feeling nauseous. Nauseous and angry.

I finished showering quickly even though my heart was pumping (with fiery rage). I somehow got out of the shower, put a towel on and collapsed on my couch. I didn't want to move. I felt paralyzed, angry, nauseous, and dizzy... there was nothing worth getting off my couch for, ever.

I just shut my eyes and kept breathing deeply (and put Jeremy's text message puzzles together) and then it all sort of went away as quickly as it came. I wasn't mad. I wasn't upset. I just had to blow dry my hair, that was all.

It was kind of terrifying. So I took 3 tylenol PM and passed out so I didn't have to deal with it.

Now I have a sinus infection (I think, that's what wikipedia's telling me) and my head feels like it's floating above my body in a cloud.

So that was my night, how was yours?


Erin said...

Oh Pattty, the best thing to do when that happens is to drink some water and concentrate on breathing. I empathize, and I hope you're feeling better!

Anonymous said...

Say what you will about Canada's National Health Care System. They don't go to doctors that end in 'pedia.

Did Dr. Wiki Pedia diagnose your sprained ankle, as well?

You are probably just nervous about the future. You are at a transition and you don't know what to do. Next time that happens you should just actually hit someone. Go to jail for 18 months. Trust me, when you get out you will have fewer options. Fewer options=less anxiety!


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