Friday, August 22, 2008

Hooked on a Feeling

It's a Friday night, and I just got in. I'm in a contemplative blogging mood. I ran into good friends tonight, like Nick Wilson - with his new outfit and kind words. He didn't say any kind words - but when he doesn't say mean, judgy words then he is kind. Wait, he did say some kind words... I'll take it! I'll admit that I hate to love him and love to hate him and that sometimes he's my favorite person ever. He's really got a hold on me. "I don't like you... but I love you...." and I mean that in a friend way.

Sometimes I just feel so damn lucky. I've wanted to do some soul cleansing lately because I've been going through ups and downs - that mainly came about with the changing of my schedule and my newly adult life. And by "adult life" I mean life as an adult, not a porn star. But every now and then, when I don't feel shitty or angry or tired, I think about it and I remember that life is pretty good for me. I'm happy to have what I do. Happy Happy Joy Joy.

I don't know why I'm so exhausted and want to go to bed at midnight on Friday night. But there's so much I want to do right now that I can't go to bed! I did Pilates earlier today and I'm still tired (yet strangely strengthened and energized at the same time.) Who would have thought 40 minutes of barely moving at all would end up hurting and making you sweat so much. But I feel stronger already, and I'm a weak person. Well, I have weak arms. Dancers don't need arms. Or something like that. And yes, grinding on the floor to "Maneater" by Nelly Furtado qualifies me as a "dancer". Have you seen me kick? I get my kicks.

I'm just really looking forward to the next few months. I'm exciting for fall to come... I plan on visiting Pittsburgh again with my family. I plan on going to the Jason Mraz concert. I plan on singing Christmas songs in the car. And oh yeah, did I mention I'm going to Las Vegas in TWO WEEKS????????????????????? Cause I am. And I'm SO fucking excited.

Goodnight. Auf Wiedersehen. Buenas Noche.

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