Thursday, October 30, 2008

We are a family, like a giant tree...



So there's been quite a theme in my life for the past week: High school. It's been coming up in more ways than one.

From fights.. rumors.. talking about people behind their back.. and even to smaller things like randomly talking to Ferris from high school who is now in Iraq... or running into someone at Starbucks who I haven't seen since those days...

But here's a snippit of conversation from last night...

Person 1: I thought you got along well with (name)!
Person 2: I get along with him in the way that I get along with some people who have been here a long time...
Person 1: I don't get that, it's such a small place, we should all just get along.

Totally ignoring the fact that Person 1's statement was probably directed towards me (by actually not ignoring it and blogging about it...) it brought up a few thoughts...

Cliques. Theater cliques. When you decide you're going to go work for a theater, you better be equipped to deal with some drama. And it's not just me... there's been other drama. Egos... relationships... fights... etc. But, if you decide to work there and JUST work - you will not be accepted. You'll be left out. But if you work there and become a part of the theater, then get ready.

To me, it's like a family. Families fight, they never ALWAYS get along. To me, theaters are like big, incestual, close-knit, weird, crazy families. Everyone knows everything about each other. People date, people fight each other, people talk about each other, there are constant issues... and sometimes everyone gets along, but a lot of the time people do not.

So, I looked it up. I thought, "Whyyyyy is it like thisss??!?! I wish it wasn't because my SOUL HURTS." And I found an article on why teens and pre-teens get into cliques - and here's a quote I found that was so FITTING it's scary.

"Safety, for those whose self-esteem and self-confidence is still shaky, lies in fitting in and having a place to belong. Most kids find a group with whom they “click” in a healthy way. Others get swept up in a “clique” that does give them some security but at the price of their individuality and maybe even their values."

Theater people (some might call them 'actors' or even better, 'thespians' such as "the Improv Asylum thespians"...) for the most part, are the most egotistical, confident people in the world... in such a way that they are extremely batshit crazy and hate themselves. All they do is think about themselves, and how much they want people to love them and accept them. So, it makes perfect sense that we strive to fit in, belong, and gain acceptance of other people... so, there's our clique.

Some people become the queen bees & beatles (I made that up.) While others strive to be the queen bees and beatles... so they do whatever it takes. Losing themselves in the process... as the quote suggests. I've seen that happen so much.

What I find funny is that when I got to Improv Asylum 3.5 years ago... I wasn't all that confident. I was awkward... so I lost forty pounds, dyed my hair red and got into improv classes. So working there sort of helped me build a better me, so to say, and I was like, totally confident. All of a sudden I felt awesome... I was never sad.. everyday was great... I got out of bed and birds chirped and sun shined through my windows. I feel like I gained my individuality by joining a clique. I went with the flow... I didn't force myself on anyone. I took time to be accepted.. and then one day, I was the one doing the accepting.

Here's the "acceptor" job works - "Her, yes. Him, yes. Her, no! KRISTIN, Fire her!! She mis-spoke my name!!!! WHY DID THAT GIRL JUST LOOK MIKE IN THE EYE?? DOESN'T SHE KNOW NOT TO SPEAK TO THE TALENT YET?!?! GET HER OUT."

But you know, things go up and down... and in the end, we all continue to love the F out of each other... (and hate the F out of each other...)

But yeah. High school. We're all basically a bunch of teenagers. Which probably explains why we freak out when Miley Cyrus plays....


** P.s. I'm not trying to offend anyone. Most of this is a generalization... and I have a lot of these qualities. This is just me being real, this is just me Barrett'ing All - am I right Nick Mandella?

P.s.2. Kyle just said my boobs look good today. I don't know if your boobs should look good when you're at work. BUT I'LL TAKE IT! :-)

5 comments:

Erin said...

Woooh, Patty! Droppin' bombs!

Liza said...

HA!

This is funny.

Nick said...

Barrett'all you big breasted beauty

Ryan said...

yikes. patty i'm sorry, we can come up with another bit! christ!

Patty Barrett said...

NO RYAN! NOTHING WILL EVER BE THE SAME!

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