Friday, January 2, 2009

when things aren't what you expect


you know what's the worst? expectations.

i, for one, am tired of expecting things. i'm tired of starting a day saying "this is going to happen today..." because once i say that, i get let down. and i don't want to be let down, so i'm not going to expect anything anymore!

Like when I saw Twilight - I was totally disappointed. But that's only because I expected good things... if I went into the theater not really caring (like a lot of people did and enjoyed it!) then I would have enjoyed it as well.

I spend a lot of my time planning my life out. I sort of freak out when I have nothing lined up. I love my alone time - and often complain when I've done too many work doubles or have had busy weeks. But really - when I'm faced with nothing but... myself... for a day, I freak out. So I pack my life with, "Tuesday I will hang out with you, Wednesday I have a show, Thursday ... OH NO THURSDAY I'M FREE MUST FIND SOMETHING TO DO"

But my new goal is to not expect a thing because I've found one of the happiest things about life is being surprised. If I don't expect a good day, then I'll have one.

On New Years I didn't expect anything. I was upset about working but there was nothing I could do about it - I couldn't control anything that night - so I went with the flow, and I got annoyed for a good little while, but then I snapped myself out of it. I was with good people. I was grateful to be somewhere with people I loved and I did the weirdest things and had the weirdest night, and basically got frost bite, but I had a very good time.

Happy New Year everyone. And may more moments like the one above happen in '09.

2 comments:

Nick said...

and you chose that picture because?

Betsy said...

I am not sure "Life won't suck as bad if I don't expect anything from it." is what they had in mind when they created New Year's resolutions.

Also aren't you expecting something from not expecting things.

I just see so many holes. SO MANY HOLES.

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