Thursday, July 7, 2011

The Spotlight.

Yesterday, we had a little cake and champagne party at work for our CEO’s birthday. After everyone left the conference room, the anti-social people went in to eat their anxiety away with cake and talked about how awkward work parties can be. One woman was surprised that the birthday boy was shy about getting a cake and celebration. Normally, he’s very outgoing and talkative and makes jokes. But, it made perfect sense to me!

For my birthday (or sometimes not my birthday), people get me cakes or put pictures of my face on a leprechaun all over the office or crowd around my desk and sing… and while I’m very appreciative of it, I HATE IT. There’s nothing more uncomfortable than being celebrated! Just because I’m a performer, people expect me to love attention… but I kind of despise it.

It’s different when I’m performing though, because I don’t think the person on the stage is “me” necessarily. Those people don’t know my personality or what I do for a living or what kind of friend I am. So, I don’t mind the attention I get as Performer Patty. Because, I’m not going to lie, I don’t hate random strangers telling me that I’m funny. I also don’t hate being recognized on the T or the mall. Tiny slices of fame cake! That’s why I perform – to make people laugh. So I like knowing I’m doing a good job!

Basically, what I’m saying is, you can’t make a spectacle of people just because you think they’re outgoing and would LOVE it. Maybe we’re outgoing and have big personalities and can talk well in front of a group of people – but we get just as anxious about the spotlight as shy people. Except we don’t cry and/or shit our pants.

1 comment:

Silver Strands said...

Haha, so true! I've always been outgoing but I'm terribly uncomfortable when I'm the *planned* center of attention. Or when peopel give me gifts. I still turn brigh red and stammer over my words when I'm given something.


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