My dream was to work in the basement of a CVS!
Just kidding. But, I wanted to pursue comedy in every possible way. I started teaching more, performing more, directing more... I had more freedom and availability were anything to come my way. Not much did, other than the usual night stuff, but that was okay. I quickly got used to spending my days with myself and doing what I wanted during the day because I sure as hell couldn't relax like that on the weekends or at night, when everyone else gets to relax.
Financially, it's a mess. I don't make nearly enough money and I struggle a whole lot. Some months I just have to choose health insurance, rent, student loans and my cell phone over basic things like heat. (And yes, sometimes I buy a lot of drinks or impulse buy a skirt, but I'm getting better.) But, I don't regret my decision. I still love my old company, but I know that I chose what was right for me.
In a way, I accomplished all the goals I wanted to in the past year. I found goals like "direct a house team" and "direct upper levels in the training center/a grad show" and "pick up freelance copywriting projects" being crossed off my list quickly. And now, I wonder, what's next?
I'm happy. Very happy! I take a look at my life
I've been in rough places before and I've felt that desperate sense that nothing was ever going to improve. But sometimes, it just does without us knowing. And sometimes it does with a lot of hard work and we find ourselves in better places we ever imagined! There's something around the corner for all of us, we're just taking our god damn time turning it!
I'm excited for what's coming up this year. Maybe I'm too positive, but I think we're all gonna be just fine.
Did you catch the "Gangsta's Paradise" reference in this post? God, I hope so. I mean, it's pretty obvious. But if you don't know the song, you probably think I'm a crazy person. And I'm okay with that!