This past weekend, we wrapped up another production process for the mainstage. It was three weeks long and it went by in a flash... although, at the beginning, I was afraid it was going to feel like it would last forever.
The day before the process started, I freaked out. We were working with a new director from Second City with a ton of credentials and a somewhat scary reputation (for being a hard-working, great but not-so-friendly director.) It felt a whole lot like the night before the first day of school. I literally even stressed over what I was going to wear. This is probably making it seem like not that big of a deal, but my anxiety... is intense. There were panic attacks and there was no sleep.
But then we all showed up. And we literally got RIGHT up and started working. And the director, Ryan, even said "we're going to blink and the three weeks will be up." That first week was intense - in a good way. There was a lot of writing, a lot of assignments, a lot of improv, a lot of trying things out, a lot of work. And that weekend the shows were absolutely awesome. And the following two weeks of rehearsal were over-the-top productive and awesome because of it. We even spent two FULL days building an oversized greeting card together.
Now the process is all over and Ryan was right - I literally feel like I blinked and it was over. August is almost over. And we have a brand new show that we totally love. I feel silly for being so stressed out and afraid of change. I knew that it was ultimately going to work out for the better - but there is always this part of me that just wants things to stay the same and to not have to change anything ever.
But, I also know that's crazy and impossible and is usually the reason I'm stressed out, anxious and depressed in the first place. This month brought on a whole bunch of change. And I couldn't be happier. I'm so happy with the show we put together, happy with my cast, happy with all the friends that I have (even though that really didn't change much at all.) And I'm excited to keep changing things up in the coming months.
Change is hard. But change is so good! And for the first time in a while, I'm excited to change things up and see what happens. So, watch what happens! Live! That was a Bravo joke. Wow. I have to go.