Friday, March 21, 2014

My Life is Crazy

I started my new job this week!  It has been nuts.  I started on Monday and got thrown right in and now, going into Friday, I feel like I've been there forever.  Except I keep forgetting that I don't have money yet.  So, I have just been going to work and back every single day... and that's about it.  I'm getting used to the full-time schedule again.  Damnnnn, I forgot how tiring it can be.  And now I'm commuting to work every day (instead of walking five minutes there and back) so, a whole lot of adjusting is going on.  But it's a nice change, honestly.  I'm excited to try something different.  

I've been thinking a lot about whether this was the "right move" or if I'm selling out or giving up or whatever; and I know that's ridiculous because I've been here for less than two months and I HAVE TO AFFORD TO LIVE - which, let's face it, I could barely do when I was doing comedy full-time - but I can't help but feel that way.  However, I'm trying to work on patience.  I've always lacked that wonderful quality.  I want everything now!  I know that to get where I want, it's going to take a lot of hard work... and a whole lot of money.  And a whole lot of busting my ass and doing things I don't want to do to get where I want to be.  And I'm ready and excited to take on that challenge.  Moving to Los Angeles is one of the craziest and most courageous things I've done in my life... I might as well roll with the punches and embrace the unknown ahead of me.  (Moving might not be "courageous" per se, but I've lived in Massachusetts my whole life... it was a big deal for me!) 

Plus, it's sort of fun to go into a job every day and focus on other things.  Living a creative lifestyle is very difficult sometimes, I spend a lot of time in my head and creating things (or not creating things and being down on myself.)  Sharing my focus among many things is actually helping me produce better quality work... and so far is making me look forward to creating, as opposed to waking up and thinking, "Oh God, I guess I should do this today because I have to and if I don't, I'm a failure."  

Whatever, I'm rambling, but that's how my brain works.  Needless to say, there has been a lot of after work drinks.   Have you tried Bud Lite Mango-ritas?  Well, they're delicious.  And they have like a crazy amount of alcohol.  And sugar.  But alcohol! Also in the rotation: everything else.

In other news... 

I just read Questlove's book, "Soul Train: The Music, Dance, and Style of a Generation" and god damn, I loved it.  Of course I did.  It's a book about soul music and disco and R&B and bringing black entertainers into everyone's living rooms!  I never watched Soul Train aside from casually, but Questlove covered it really well - mostly because he was such a nerd for it.  It was adorable to watch the show through his eyes.  I just wish I didn't buy it on my iPad and got the actual book... it would make a great coffee table book.  I also wish I had a coffee table.

I've also been watching a lot of Beat Bobby Flay and Chopped so, if you're asking yourself if you should give up cable in favor of Hulu and Netflix since all the shows you really want to watch are on there anyway, I say YES, DO THAT.  If you're wondering if you should switch back to cable and not only have Netflix and Hulu... then I say, YES DO THAT!  (I can't tell which is better.  I enjoyed not having cable... but then I enjoy having cable and watching random bullshit!)  

And that's that. 

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