Monday, March 10, 2014

The Stages of (Willing) Unemployment

When I first got to Los Angeles, I was unemployed!  (Emphasis on the !) I had just left my job in Boston and was excited to take on something new!  I was hopeful, excited and ready to get "back into the grind" as people on my Facebook feed constantly say.  I had no worries.  I was focused on finding an apartment and then finding a job and felt my experience and work history would knock down every door! 

By the third week in Los Angeles, I was unemployed?  (Emphasis on the ?)  I found an apartment in the first week of living here!  I didn't have internet yet, so I spent daytime hours in a coffee shop around the corner from my apartment applying to jobs... to no avail.  Seriously.  I was hearing absolutely nothing back.  I was confused.  In Boston, I was killing it.  Really nailing it in the job department.  I had two of the best jobs in the city!  How come people in L.A. didn't want me?  I would wake up motivated and excited... and end each day disheartened and depressed. 

By the fifth week in Los Angeles, I was unemployed.  (Emphasis on the .)  I was feeling just "meh" about everything.  I had a couple of interviews with staffing agencies.  Some were great, others were complete failures.  No, one was a complete failure.  One makes me really mad, actually.   Most of them told me to change my resume (and by that I mean, change who I was.)  But things were looking hopeful.  I was done submitting my resume to every open position.  I was done pretending to be someone I wasn't.  I was defeated by unemployment, but at the same time, feeling that something good (actually good, not just a job) was around the corner.  

By THIS week in Los Angeles, I'm unemployed!!! (Emphasis on the !!!)  I'm less "LET'S DO THIS!" and less naive.  I found my interviewing groove.  I've met really great people.  I've had several interviews for great jobs.  Something is literally around the corner.  I don't feel like a worthless piece of garbage anymore!  I'm super confident in what I'm really good at and have a much better vision of where I'm going.  I'm relaxed, excited and more goal-oriented (instead I'LL TAKE ANYTHING-oriented).  I got home today, sat on the couch, opened a book and drank a beer.  At 3pm!  Because you know what?  I'm unemployed(!!!) and I can!!!!! 

So, for anybody who is struggling with unemployment (whether you chose it or not) or just feels lost, don't worry.  There's light at the end of the tunnel.  It might take two weeks, seven weeks... or a year.  But you'll figure it out.  It's cheesy, but things really do have a way of working out.  

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