In two months, I am turning 29 years old.
One of my best friends from high school already hit the 29 mark and when I sent my “Happy Birthday!” text, she responded that it was depressing. I thought, “Yeah, we’re getting old and it’s weird.” We graduated high school over ten years ago… and it feels awkward to look back and see what we have, or have not, accomplished.
But you know what I realized recently? I fucking love getting older.
I’m happy when I look back on the last ten years of my life. I see a lot of life-changing moments and career goals that were successfully pursued. I see a lot of people that came in and out – and some that stayed and will stay forever. I see a whole lot of performing and confidence gaining. I see a successful move across the country. I see quality time with great people. I was lucky, and not so lucky, in love. I see a lot of mistakes and lessons learned. It really wasn’t a bad set of ten years.
I work with a lot of people who are younger than me and it’s eye opening when I talk to them about work or life. I see a great amount of curiosity and general lack of confidence and fear of making mistakes. There is trouble figuring out relationships and if they’re single, they think they’re going to be single forever. I’m not saying I’m over all of those things, because I’m certainly not. Twenty-nine is hardly an age full of wisdom and I know that I have plenty more mistakes to make and areas where I lack confidence. But it’s nice to think that I’ve made my way over some of those humps and at least feel a confidence and resilience that I definitely didn’t have when I was fresh out of college.
I’m ready for the last year of my twenties! I’m ready to keep on trying new things, challenging myself and trying even harder to be confident and carefree. Also, I’m getting like a shit ton of grey hair and I don’t plan on covering them up with any hair dye! (I will, however, just add more and more blonde streaks that make the greys less noticeable.)
I'm not planning on losing all of my immaturity though. I still love doing dumb things and having fun with my friends. One of my favorite activities is PUTTING OFF MATURITY. I can get married and have kids when I'm 100 years old! Procrastinating on aging is the best way to procrastinate, in my opinion!
And yet, here’s to getting older and wiser and spending less time trying to make other people happy and more time working on yourself. Also, less time drinking during the day and ruining your evenings. It seems like a good idea in the morning… but is it? Not for me… not for me.